regret

i made a huge huge mistake a few weeks ago

the thing about making mistakes is,
you can try to dissect the situation as much as you can,
you can find fault in others, and find fault in the situation,
and regardless of whether it was a misunderstanding
and a rash decision for someone else to act in a certain way,
you still have to accept the fact that you are the cause

and in this case, i am the cause

the thing that disappoints and hurts me the most is,
because of my naivety and stupidity,
dear friends and loved ones get hurt in the process.
one of the things i treasure the most in my life are friendships,
and i am truly regret letting friendships down

the other thing about me is,
regardless of whether i have apologized
or whether my apology is accepted or otherwise,
one thing remains true to me

i find it hard to apologize myself. always.