and the reason is you! no wait, maybe not.

everything happens for a reason

that's what we like to believe in when crap happens,
and you go through the whole process of self-doubt
and self-depression and self-anger and self-preservation

sure, you get over to the other side and things are sunny,
but have you ever wondered whether it was REALLY worth it?

is life really THAT complicated that you NEED to go thru crap,
just so you can go thru the whole cycle of enlightenment,
come thru the other side and be all shiny and brand new?

and even if you HAD to, isn't doint it ONCE enough already?
and even if you went thru it more than once,
has it REALLY made you a better and stronger person?
would you REALLY wanna go thru all that just so
you can tell yourself you are a better person for it?
wouldn't you just prefer NOT to go thru crap
and settle with being LESS better and stronger instead?

gosh, reading through all that has gotten me a bit worried.
perhaps it's the bitter side of me talking

but oh well, i'm sure that it is perfectly ok.
after all, everything happens for a reason.