one.denial.shock.

they say that there are 7 stages of grief

they say everyone goes through it somehow.
i think it is important to gain perspective where we can,
perhaps i'll give this a shot and see where it goes;

-denial-

i know it happened,
i'm sure i made it happen,
it just somehow doesn't feel that way

i guess it still hasn't fully sunk in. 

-shock-

i can't say this came as a shock.

things have gone downhill over the past year,
and issues have escalated over the past few months,
over and over and over.

without even a hint of light at the end of the tunnel.

so no, it doesn't come as a shock.
truthfully, the only shocking thing about it
is how i've kept it going for all this time

looking back, i probably shouldn't have.